2016 Winter Retreat / by Pneuma Fellowship

To give some context, several years ago I was working through my fatherless status. I had finally acknowledged that I do not know the first thing about being a man, let alone a godly one. It was around that time that God was ministering to me through Hosea. He began to show me that I had been trying to grow up on my own and it was not working, but He had every ability to be a capable father to me.

That journey has been continuing and currently I’ve been in a place of exploring with God, “What kind of man do I need and want to become?” I’ve been asking God to illuminate people and characteristics that I can draw from, qualities that He wants me to admire and practice. The retreat was a blessing in many ways, but one of the primary ways was that God was showing me that He is still steadily on the mission He set on years earlier. He’s been responding to my prayer and illuminating people and characteristics.

As I was listening through Pastor Bert’s sermons and the ways God was working in his life, he was illuminated to me as someone to observe during the retreat. When he was sharing the reasons for his church being called Heaven Light, I was sold. I need to become someone who navigates this world and lives in it as someone who sees with spiritual eyes. This was reinforced and coupled with God reminding me of the need for humility. Just like the leper in his need and desperation was able see the Lordship of Jesus when others could not, I too need to keep kneeling, and asking, and hungering after Jesus.

- Tim Hwang